‎63 Years of Memories....

‎63 Years of Memories....
that's what I have now. The photo below shows the chair on the point which for so many years was my father's favorite after-supper place to contemplate and cast for walleye. As much as I feel guilty about what's happened, I know he would understand and even say there's nothing to forgive. He lived life fully and moved on many times. I'm the one with the unique experience of being attached to a beautiful place for my whole life. And despite all my best efforts, yesterday the 'cabin' was sold. I signed the papers and, truth be told, a weight was lifted. A new life lies ahead without the obligations, but with all of the wonderful memories. My unrelentingly positive attitude says this is truly how it is, but my heart is still sad.

There are some things in life for which the balance between the obligation and the joy of ownership often cannot be sustained forever. It became clear that I was no longer up to the task of taking care of the place quite a while back. However, knowing what needs to be done and doing it are often far apart. Finally, no choice was left. It had to be sold.

Now it's gone. No more worrying about how long the grass or how deep the snow is up there. No more sublimely pleasurable early morning cups of coffee sitting on the dock when the color of the lake is like pale blue glass and the air is completely still. No more endless repairs, high taxes, and utility bills. No more late nights around the fire pit with friends and family - warm from both fire and friendship. No more frozen pipes or emergency calls to the furnace guys. No more saunas and midnight skinny dipping that make you feel like you'll live forever while your connection with nature is confirmed by the gazillion stars of the milky way and the loons calling out in the dark. No more concerns with low well water levels or water so hard and full of iron the clothes turn yellow and your newly washed hair feels like brillo. No more finding the way home by boat in the dark after a long day on the lake feeling like this is the only place you really, really belong. No more praying that the boathouse will make it another year without collapsing. And ultimately, no more making new memories with friends, family and loved ones. No new memories, that is, at Half Bay, Lake Vermilion, Tower, MN. New life... here we come!

How do you thank a place for memories?

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Llamas


Here is a random image that I found somewhere. I hope it lightens the mood.

I hope everyone hasn't forgotten about the blog. Everyone keeps telling me about what they are going to post and I never see it. Britta's animal planet, dad's flood and Tania has some news too. That is all a can guilt trip in one sitting.

So I have been reading through the jeep parts catalog, daydreaming about restoring the Willy's. I think that I will have that whole thing memorized by the time I return.

It ha been sweltering as usual but I am pretty used to it. It seems to bother everyone around me alot more. I am still drinking more than a gallon of water per day.

I bought a new pair of headphones. Pioneers. They don't sound nearly as good as my old Senns but they are decent. I am listening to my IPod almost every minute I have available. Alot of Dead and blues. People thing I have really strange taste in music. For some reason people keep asking me if I can name random songs. It has become a game around the office, even with my abysmal record of success. If it keeps them entertained then what the heck.

"Arabian wind
The Needle's Eye is thin
The Ships of State sail on mirage
but drown in sand
in No-Man's Land
where ALLAH does command

What good is spilling
blood? It will not
grow a thing"
--GD

"Almost ablaze and you don't feel the heat
Takes all you got just to stay on the beat
You say it's a living, we all gotta eat
but you're here alone, there's no one to compete
If mercy's in business I wish it for you
More than just ashes when your dreams come true"
--GD

Why would someone even think to tie llamas to thier roof? WTF?
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2 comments:

Lottie Dah said...

Because the inside is full!

9:31 AM
Lottie Dah said...

What I think is really funny about this photo is that the ones on the roof seem to be having a good time!

9:32 AM

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